This goes out to someone that was once an important person in my life. I didn’t realize that at the time. I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you.. so, I don’t really expect you to either. It’s just……. I don’t even know… Just listen:

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need, the one that I gotta have just to succeed. When I first saw you, I knew it was real. I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel. That wasn’t me. Let me show you the way. I look for the sun, but it’s raining today. I remember when I first looked into your eyes; it was like I was there, heaven in the sky. I wore a disguise cause I didn’t want to get hurt. BUT I didn’t know I made everything worse. You told me we were crazy in love. But you didn’t care when push came to shove. If you loved me as much as you said you did, then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit. Now you push me away, like you never even knew me. I love you in my heart, really and truly. I guess you forgot all the times that we shared: when you would run your fingers through my hair, late nights, just holding me in your arms. I don’t know how I could do you so wrong. I really wanna show you, I really wanna hold you, I really wanna know you like no one else can know you. You’re number one, ALWAYS in my heart. And now I can’t believe that our loves torn apart.. I need you and I miss you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you. You were my everything and I really miss you. I know you’re gonna sit, and read this with your new girl—and sit and laugh while you’re holding her hand. The thought of that just shatters my heart; it breaks in my soul and tears me apart. At times we were off, and I was afraid to show you—now I want to hold you until I can’t hold you. Without you, everything seems strange. Your name is forever planted in my brain. Damn it I’m insane. Take away the pain. Take away the hurt, baby we can make it work. What about when you look into my eyes? You told me you love me as you would hug me.. I guess everything you said about me was a lie. I think about it, and it brings tears to my eyes. Now I’m not even a thought in your mind.. I can see clearly my love is not blind. I need you and I miss you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you. You were my everything and I really miss you.

I just wish everything could have turned out different. I had a special feeling about you. I thought, maybe you did too.. You would understand, but.. no matter what, you’ll always be in my heart. You’ll always be my baby.

Our first day, it seemed so magical. I remember all the times I had with you. Remember when you first came to my house? We hit it off, I knew it was real. But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel. Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there. I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care. Remember the times? Remember when we kissed? I didn’t think you would ever do me like this. I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depress. I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess.. You said you were my best friend, was that a lie??? Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another girl.. I tried, I tried, I tried and I’m trying.. now on the inside, it feels like I’m dying. I need you and I miss you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you. You were my everything and I really miss you.

And I do miss you.. I just thought we were meant to be.. I guess now we’ll never know. The only thing I want for you is to be happy—whether it be with me or without me. I just want you to be happy.